„ᴡᴇ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ɢᴏᴅ, ᴡʜᴏ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀꜱᴛᴀɴᴅꜱ ᴏᴜʀ ᴡᴇᴀᴋɴᴇꜱꜱᴇꜱ, ꜰᴏʀ ʜᴇ ꜰᴀᴄᴇᴅ ᴀʟʟ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴀᴍᴇ ᴡᴇ ᴅᴏ, ʏᴇᴛ ʜᴇ ᴅɪᴅ ɴᴏᴛ ꜱɪɴ.“ (ʜᴇʙʀᴇᴡꜱ 𝟦,𝟣𝟧)

„ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ ʜᴇ ᴡᴀꜱ ɢᴏᴅ, ʜᴇ ᴅɪᴅ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴏꜰ ᴇǫᴜᴀʟɪᴛʏ ᴡɪᴛʜ ɢᴏᴅ ᴀꜱ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴄʟɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ. ɪɴꜱᴛᴇᴀᴅ, ʜᴇ ɢᴀᴠᴇ ᴜᴘ ʜɪꜱ ᴅɪᴠɪɴᴇ ᴘʀɪᴠɪʟᴇɢᴇꜱ; ʜᴇ ᴛᴏᴏᴋ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴜᴍʙʟᴇ ᴘᴏꜱɪᴛɪᴏɴ ᴏꜰ ᴀ ꜱᴇʀᴠᴀɴᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴀꜱ ʙᴏʀɴ ᴀꜱ ᴀ ʜᴜᴍᴀɴ ʙᴇɪɴɢ. ᴡʜᴇɴ ʜᴇ ᴀᴘᴘᴇᴀʀᴇᴅ ɪɴ ʜᴜᴍᴀɴ ꜰᴏʀᴍ, ʜᴇ ʜᴜᴍʙʟᴇᴅ ʜɪᴍꜱᴇʟꜰ ɪɴ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴅɪᴇᴅ ᴀ ᴄʀɪᴍɪɴᴀʟ’ꜱ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏɴ ᴀ ᴄʀᴏꜱꜱ ꜰᴏʀ ᴜꜱ.“ (ᴘʜɪʟɪᴘᴘɪᴀɴꜱ 𝟤,𝟨-𝟪)

„was it worth it?“ worth to suffer, worth to pay my debt even when I fail everyday, worth to find this pure love which never fails?

I hope I will know it some day…

In all my wondering I will only trust in Him. Cause His love never fails. Even if everything dies. He makes beauty of the ashes. I give up control, freedom is when He reigns.

He found my heart, He paid the spark, He called me out of the dark, He is the owner of my heart. And if He holds the stars in place, He can hold my heart the same. I only find my worth in Him as He died and rose again. I always run back in His love. When I die I will fall back in His arms. I’II see the one I trusted all my life, then I’II see all things in His light. And I will know for all… it was worth it all.